Is this real, is this pretend?

Huff, for the first time, biology is driving me insane!!
Jeezz,, I thought this could be my opportunity, but now I'm wondering if I refused this, what happen then? Idk what do You want, but I'm sure that you always have the best plan for me,,
Now, I'm in the church, typing this entry with my father's blackberry and with the biology book in my hands,, Hmm this should be great,,,
I'm wondering, are they right? Am I love him? And if that's real, how about the other one? Should I leave him easily?? Idk, this problem shouldn't happens to me, so. Take it easy girl and let the things go in their own way,,